M.A.T.U.R.E

Just came back from Yum cha with Oon Chai...haha...sharing our problem also...but i m fed up with keep on talking bout our matters...sien d?haha...ofcox not...he told me just now..he said we sure cant stand within this month..and he think that we will break up...aha...what a shit word he gave me..fuck him 99...hmm..but..i got influence on it too..is quite sensitive bout this topic..because i do really scare..bie..miss you de..just now i got a feel to call you or msg you..the msg i typed d..but i got no dare to send it to you..cox i scare you will feel that i m fan and make you fan...haix..what can i do..i m really suffer in this moment..i keep tell myself by not thinking of you and i silent my phone..is quite funny when my mum asked me where is my phone..cox i know you wont find me, so that i don care where is my phone..ahaa..but..everytime when i look after my phone..my heart will hope that you will call me or msg me...but..everytime i also will disappointed and put down the phone back..stupid right..


Today's topic is talk about mature...I m trying to be mature to maintain our relationship...if last time..i m sure that i will complain with my bf if one month cannot meet with a reason that not really reasonable...but..i can do it right now..how stupid i m by making myself suffer which one month cannot meet...what the fuck am i agree with your decision...but...you need it...actually things i wanted is i can support you everyday..giving you motivation to work more harder..maybe is not work for you..or maybe i m not trying my best...or i m doing in a wrong way ba...i want to call you, i want to talk to you,i want to know your news,i want you bie.....i wonder if i back to subang will be miss you more because there are the place that we oi oi together,watch series together,have fun together,dinner together,drink your lovely nescafe together,eat my cracker together...hmm.....miss you bie.......